It’s been a while.

So, it’s been a while since I have written a post. Since 2013, to be exact. So much has been going on and has changed. Besides me getting older, my life has changed so much. I left California and moved to Texas. Life here has been crazy. Lots of good times and ups, and a hell of a lot of downs. Within the first month, I found a job and within 4 months, I had my own apartment. I worked hard to set up and make a good life for my kids out here and was living well. I met someone and ended up having another baby. I’m now 35 and have 3 kids (all girls, yes, I know I have my hands full). The man I met, I was with for 6 years. I met him the year I moved out here, and we just recently broke up in February of this year.

    That relationship was one hell of an emotional trip. We got together quick and things were good, until they weren’t. He had an issue with being faithful. He is the kind that always needed constant attention and validation. I gave him all my time, love and attention. We worked together and lived together but that wasn’t enough apparently. I gave him chance after chance after chance and he just kept up with the bullshit. I’m not someone who has one set of rules for men and women, I feel both should be held at the same standard. So I expected for him to grow up and act accordingly as I did. We are both around the same age, he is 3 years older than me. I guess it was an issue that I was asking him to be loyal and to grow up. I’m the kind of person who I only want attention from the one I’m with. I don’t need attention from multiple men and women or care how many people might be interested or want me. He, however wants all the attention from everyone who will give it to him. I finally, after a million years (in actuality 6 years), and a million chances I decided to walk away. I knew I deserved better, truthfully I’ve known since the first incident I deserved better. I stuck around so long because I was hoping he would change. Stupid me, should have known it wasn’t going to happen as that tends to be a thing people don’t change.

    There is much more that has been going on and an even bigger event in my life that has really affected me but that is a post for another day as it is so much to get into it deserves it’s own post. If you stuck it out this far and made it to the end I appreciate it.